A Friend, Simply

As a friend you have much better insight
You ask a lot of me, but it is what I requested
You would like the mystery of my light
But such honesty has been mostly protested

I have been hiding the truth for so very long
From everyone including myself
A continuous and self-defeating song

I don’t wish to deny you with my defenses
I could easily tear down my walls of fear
It could be done with a few remaining pretenses
Simply a massive shifting of a selfish gear

Only I know the flames and crackling that are heard
It isn’t something that I benefitted from
I suffer the most from the lack of a word

It would be good for me to end my hesitations
And if I give you open access to my thoughts
Crashing my own gates to give you visitations
Break down the walls that I have wrought

Yet it’s so hard to deny a life’s maze
Yield to the common without hesitation
To fix the error of a life in a haze

Barbara Blackcinder


About Barbara Blackcinder

I am a poet/writer with a need for words. There are so many out there that I haven't used yet. They define all reality and mine when you read those from me.
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