Black and White, black and white, and ample shades of grey.
I don’t know what you expected, but I turned out this way
Started in one direction, looking towards the other side
But since no one else had this problem, it was something just to hide.
And so my life goes on, with no clues to read, no comfort for my sins
I struggle with my ineptitudes, somehow I just can’t win
I have the body to compete in sports, yet never quite succeed
While others made real progress, I simply seem to bleed
There’s no message, there’s no clue, coming from my peers
When I fail the sport’s team, I’m only met with sneers.
How can I be so unbalanced, how can I be so lame
I struggle to hold up, with those that seem the same
It’s just inside this skin-lined cast that has a different blend
And no matter how I translate, the brain continues to send
Messages that I shouldn’t receive, or that I should not grip
But through the confused mixture, both messages do slip
So by the year I carry on, thinking I’m just inept
While through my entire childhood, I have quietly miss stepped
I had dreams and I had plans, I always came up wrong
Too lost to find my way through it, childhood was so long
And today I find some answers, but as usual too late
The years have long since passed me, standing there at the gate
All the world’s old horses, have circled around the track
So many awful memories, years that won’t come back
Perhaps it would have been simple, if I had gotten a clue
From family members, or friends of mine, or maybe even you
But the biggest chance was always, similarly unknown
From everyone around me, the truth was never shown
I was just another child, one who just never did quite fit
Who must only say they’re lucky, that they never chose to quit.